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Jun 30th 2023!⃝I believe this song is a perfect example of codependency and unhealthy hyperfixation of your partner. I love this song and I believe it puts my emotions into lyrics. I am very obsessive and emotionally dependent on all my significant others. although Ive only been in 2 real relationships as of now in my late teens/almost 20s, when i was younger I was always obsess over my little flings I had. Constantly craving validation. Is that undiagnosed mental illness or daddy issues? Maybe. Sharing my heart is absolutely destroying me. I have no idea how to have a normal healthy relationship with men. My
emotions and behavior is attached to them and how they treat me. Not to help, I always find myself with toxic or other mentally ill lovers. Once I put them on this pedestal and i am so infatuated with them, they always disappoint or do not treat me how I believe I should be treated or dedicate 110% of their waking minutes to me. (Which is irrational) What hurts more is I am self aware of my irrational antics but I actually cannot change. One moment I can feel like they are useless and they mean nothing to me. Soon enough, they are the missing puzzle piece to my life…again. “I might need you or Ill break” After playing this cat and mouse game and telling them how much I dont love or need them, they rightfully leave me be and it drives me insane and I go into a manic spiral. I really have so much more to say about this song but I really dont know how to put it into words. I truthfully need to be by myself because I actually drive myself to insanity and they actually have no idea. I hope somebody can relate to this and feel less alone. Im not sure the diagnosis but I know there is probably one out there.
